So this storm is freaking me out. I hate thunder and I just want to hide under my covers. I’m not even in my own bed tonight, brb while I die inside a little.. I hate rain… Why can’t it be all sunny and happy. WHYYYYY.
I could be having the best day and you can change it within an instant. I don’t know why you have this hook on me to where I can’t just forget about you. I don’t understand why I care about you so much. I could have so much better but yet I still have this thing with you. No matter how mad I get at you I still forgive you and make sure we’re still on good terms, always. I just feel in the end I’m going to get hurt. I feel like I’m lied to all the time, but yet I still believe everything you tell me. Something always makes me want to trust you, but I know I shouldn’t, but yet I still do. Why can’t I just let this bullshit go and move on with my life? This is what makes me ready to leave for college so I don’t have to put up with this. Just why. Why do I put up with useless shit when I could be having so much better? Who knows. I give up. Sucks to suck.